It has been over a year since I wrote on this blog page. There were a number of times I tried to write, whether for the blog or for other outputs, but I just didn’t feel it. So I decided not to. I enjoyed that decision. Whenever I try and force things, I find they’re often not as enjoyable. Sometimes I seem to put pressure on things that really don’t have to have pressure, overthinking outcomes or outputs. Whilst some element of foresight and planning can be useful, I find an increasing joy in undertaking a task for the sheer sake of undertaking it. It’s a continual process to find the balance but I find overall joy when living a flexible flow.
I was recently asked a question about whether I am inquisitive and part of me experienced the question as also asking whether I want to find answers, to any range of questions. My mind was blank; I found it difficult to respond in that moment and so opted for the answer “I don’t know”, which felt okay.
A couple of hours later, a phrase popped into my head in response to this question – “I used to want to know, now I like to learn”. This response immediately resonated with me. It may have arrived in slightly different wording at first, but it reshaped into those words. I’d like to explore the words by separating the sentence and comparing two parts alongside each other;
- I used to want to know
- Now I like to learn
“I used to” vs “Now I”
Here, I’m struck by the change in tense. The first part is past tense, i.e., I used to do something, whereas the second part is present tense, i.e., now, it is always now. For me, this highlights the importance of the present moment, of working with what is arising in this moment, though it should be added that by combining the two parts into one whole sentence, ‘now’ gives a sense of recognising the role of the past in the present, to a point.
“want to” vs “like to”
Here, there is a change in the amount of clinging and desire which pervades my life. I continually work to remove the necessity of wants and needs, and try to find joy and passion in each thing that I do; I experience more peace when I reduce trying to achieve or accomplish things; instead I focus on undertaking the present task and actually, I find I still undertake all ranges of challenges and new experiences throughout all aspects of life, with a bit more peace.
“know” vs “learn”
I don’t know if anything can be truly known. Similar to ‘want’ and ‘like’, I find this distinguishing of “know” and “learn” represents my efforts to release the suffering that comes with wanting to know. I find that when wanting to know something, I create this narrative of being somebody who knows something, and I can end up attaching to ideas in a desperate search to prove something to be right. I may even end up trying to know something that I don’t even wish to know – consequently, I lose focus on enjoying that which I am doing.
By holding the perspective of everything being something to learn, with no over attachment to an end goal or end product, I find myself open to new ideas, new subjects of learning, and I find I am less offended if an idea or thought I have is challenged, allowing me to further learn from other people, reshaping and remodelling my views and experiences.
I mentioned in my introductory blog post that I have an interest in promoting philosophy further within society. Though I had enjoyed writing the couple of blog posts that I have so far presented, something didn’t quite feel right. I pondered, “what is it that I want these to be?”. I reflected back on the book I recently completed and the sole aim of that book was to write about the questions and aspects of life which I think may relate or be of interest to us all, in hope that anybody can take that information to process their own views and questions of life, either within their own writing and reflections, or through discussion with friends, family and well, anybody.
Though I initially considered interviewing people about questions of life and presenting this through a podcast, I realised that this didn’t quite feel like the right process, for a variety of reasons.
As such, after further reflection, I have decided that I will release my book in a phased blog format, through this webpage.
Each blog post will present a new part of the book, the topic of which will be outlined in the contents page.
The book is entitled
“What is life? A 21st century perspective”
I shall say no more on the book as I will swiftly release the opening introduction chapter following publication of this blog post. In the opening chapter, I explain exactly what the book is, what it’s about and what it will contain.
I hope you enjoy reading it